I used to believe my life was a garden. My very own little plot of land to create in any way I wished. Season after season I could plant new ideas and bury wishes that would eventually spring into bold, vivid color. Luscious flowers would gently open before my eyes. Petal by delicate petal until they blossomed into the gorgeous future of my imagination. Blooms as big as cabbages, and birdsong to greet each new day. All would be right with the world and my place in it would be assured.
Or so I thought. The future is something no one can foretell. But still, I imagined I could make a difference. That I would reap what I had sewn.
Now we live in a time when we are fortunate to gather the fallen apples others have left behind. The grass is brittle and frozen while weeds await the precise moment when they will spring up and grow out of control. Birds are chattering in the cold as the snow blankets their carefully built nests.
And yet it is here, in this Dead of Winter, that we are called upon to pony up our seeds of hope and plant them as the New Year dawns. Now,… while the wind howls and the dark owns the daylight and while more people are losing their jobs, their homes and their hope.
How easily I can be defeated by this cold, as anyone who knows my soul will attest. I can draw the shades, sleep through this day and night and allow my seeds to wither and die. My hope will slowly rot into the ground from which it sprang. It is not hard to imagine.
Now that I have put down roots I must choose what to do with them. It is still quite true: The future is something no one can foretell. But on the horizon of my dreams there is a glimmer of sunlight. Just a glimmer. So I will plant my dreams beside those roots and water them with my imperfect love and hope the sun finds me. Because in this New Year, I want a beautiful garden. And I want all my roses to be pink.
Happy New Year.